Self Esteem
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So, how have you been lately?
I feel like I haven’t been updating as often as I should, and I’m sorry to say it’s because I haven’t been doing so great lately. I’ve been dealing with some stuff that’s come up in therapy and to be honest it’s been taking up a lot of my time just keeping myself afloat. I’ve…
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A writer’s voice
Earlier today I worked on some of my memoirs and I was surprised by the difference I felt in my own writer’s voice. I have a theory that the exercise of writing my novel has changed the way I write. A lot of people have told me over the last year or so that you…
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Why can’t I just stay in bed?
It’s hard to explain my depression to someone who’s never been through it. It’s normal for people to feel sad sometimes, everyone has times like that and there is a comfort in knowing that you have something to be sad about. For me, at this moment in time, I’m sad for no reason. I feel…
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Accepted!
I found out on Thursday that a short story I submitted was accepted to be published in a local writers’ magazine. Now I don’t know exactly what the distribution of the magazine is, nor what sort of scope of readership it has but none the less – I will soon be able to say that…
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What it means to admit I have depression.
I have struggled with depression a lot in my life I have just turned 28. The first time I was referred to the school counselor I was 11 years old. After that I saw several counselors, psychologists, psychiatrists and family therapists throughout my school life and early adulthood. When I was 14 I tried to kill myself. Not…
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Renewing Old Friendships
I have written before about how my journey has taken me away from people who used to hold important places in my life. This last week I made it my goal to get back in touch with people who I believe are going to be positive influences in my life but with whom, for various…
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Hard days and nights
This last couple of days have been particularly hard for me. In addition to being cooped up inside for the second week in a row I’ve been going through some pretty heavy self-reflection. I had a run in with my estranged father. He came across this blog and I was horrified. I couldn’t put my…
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I found my diary…
I’ve mentioned before that I’m writing some memoirs. At this stage they’re largely for my own use, so that I can process some stuff that’s going on for me, but today I found a diary, an online journal. It has entries dating from May 2001 to September 2007 although most of the entries are from…
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Writers’ Groups
A couple of posts ago I told you that I was going to a Writers’ Group. In fact I have been to two in the last week, they were both kind of amazing but quite different in their own way. The first was the Boroondara Writers Group who meet once a month in Balwyn. This…
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Is this what it feels like?
I’ve been working on with my psychologist on trying to be aware of and honest about my feelings. Allowing myself to be vulnerable, to be hurt, to be scared, trying to let go of the strong, distant Fleur and embracing the Fleur who is stressed out by things, and who feels sad (and happy) about…
Fleur Blüm 