Loneliness
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Solitude or Loneliness?
It’s been a while since I posted here. I’ve been so busy doing this and that I guess I forgot. The last few weeks I’ve been thinking it might be nice to have a dog for company. I’ve been living alone, for the first time in my life, since I bought an apartment in late…
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What if?
Today is a free writing day. Write at least four-hundred words, and once you start typing, don’t stop. No self-editing, no trash-talking, and no second guessing: just go. Bonus points if you tackle an idea you’ve been playing with but think is too silly to post about. I identify as a feminist. Usually I’m…
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Fear
I’m standing on a windswept cliff top, everything below is whipped into a rage by the winds, the sea throwing itself against the rocks. I’m cold, wearing only the jogging clothes I came up in, damp with sweat. Slowly I turn back to the thing that frightened me, your face, crushed by the conversation we’re…
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A Human Character
Today, you’ll write about a person you’ve met in 2014. In your twist, develop and shape your portrait further in a character study. The thing about meeting new people is that they either make no impression at all or they have a lasting impact on how you see yourself, live your life or how…
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Fragile Moments
The following is a bit of a rambling rant. Please don’t feel any obligation to read it. Today I’m sad. I have had an exhausting week up in Sydney doing training for my day job. The stuff covered was leadership, conflict management, and HR skills. Four and a half days of trying to work out…
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Strange days
I’ve been in a strange place this week. My day job has been quite hard and I have been questioning whether I’m really capable of doing it. I finished writing my novel and have been feeling a bit lost without it, but also creatively exhausted and at the moment sort of dreading having to edit…
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Why can’t I just stay in bed?
It’s hard to explain my depression to someone who’s never been through it. It’s normal for people to feel sad sometimes, everyone has times like that and there is a comfort in knowing that you have something to be sad about. For me, at this moment in time, I’m sad for no reason. I feel…
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What it means to admit I have depression.
I have struggled with depression a lot in my life I have just turned 28. The first time I was referred to the school counselor I was 11 years old. After that I saw several counselors, psychologists, psychiatrists and family therapists throughout my school life and early adulthood. When I was 14 I tried to kill myself. Not…
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Hard days and nights
This last couple of days have been particularly hard for me. In addition to being cooped up inside for the second week in a row I’ve been going through some pretty heavy self-reflection. I had a run in with my estranged father. He came across this blog and I was horrified. I couldn’t put my…
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Trust the Universe
I wrote quite a long post about how I’ve been a bit down recently over my lack of romance. I have decided not to publish that. Instead, I am going to publish the below list of affirmations that came out of that post and that I want to make the mantras of my life. I…
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