Psychology
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Is this what it feels like?
I’ve been working on with my psychologist on trying to be aware of and honest about my feelings. Allowing myself to be vulnerable, to be hurt, to be scared, trying to let go of the strong, distant Fleur and embracing the Fleur who is stressed out by things, and who feels sad (and happy) about…
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Writing is like, hard, y’know?
On Monday morning at 9am I sat down to write a short story. I had set myself the challenge of writing four or five first drafts for some short story competitions I had found online. The story I wrote on Monday was about my mother’s experience with cancer. The Cancer Council had set up an…
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But I wasn’t ready!
Today I didn’t go to work because I’m on school holidays. I started the day slowly with a nice cup of coffee and wrote my first draft of the first of the short stories I had set myself to write. I did my reading for uni, both accounting and history, I started on my history…
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On why I choose to be poor and happy rather than rich and miserable
Recently both my psychologist and one of the guys who works at my gym have commented on how much happier I appear; that there is much less rage emanating from my presence. This makes me happy. I know that when I started this blog I said ‘I will never get a job’ – but I’m…
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Bravado
I had an appointment with my psychologist yesterday. Sessions with her are always really difficult and yesterday she told me that I use bravado, that I have a persona, to cope with the fact that I don’t like people to know that I’m vulnerable. As irritating as it is to admit, I think she’s right.…
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